Mar 17, 2010

I really shouldn’t post on this thing when I’m feeling like this.

Today has been a disappointing day all round. Estate agents are coming to look at our flat tomorrow. The owner is selling, which means that we’re going to end up moving. Sadly we can’t afford to buy it ourselves.

I had a meeting with Darren this afternoon, which was postponed. I actually feel sick from the anticipation of that meeting and the disappointment of it not happening. My stomach feels like it’s turning over itself and no amount of Rescue drops seems to be helping. Noelle said (and let me assure you that this is not a comforting thought) that it takes half the amount of time to get over someone that you spent going out with them. That translates to 2.5 months of feeling like this... This. Yuck.

Coffee with Noelle last night was enjoyable. It’s always good to catch up with her, although it ended up being an earlier night than I had expected. I just shut down. Well, my brain shut down and I literally ran out of things to say. I suppose I’m not the witty, communicative, intelligent individual that I like to believe I am... or at least, not when it matters.

Her solution to the whole relationship thing seems to be, in order to get over one you need to replace it with another. I just don’t know if I can do that. The thought of dating someone else is making me more ill. Darren is perfection in every way. How do you replace that? Gosh... it’s actually a very frightening thought.

Anyways, before I end up in another set of melodramatic tears let me change the subject.

Movies! Monday is both a public holiday and movie day with mom. We’re going to watch Alice in Wonderland. Noelle didn’t rate it very highly, but then some people loved it and some people hated it. I suppose it all depends on how well you know the books and how much of a Lewis Carroll fan you are. I’ve never actually read the entire Alice in Wonderland book, which I suppose I’ll correct at some point. This means, however, that my expectations are minimal and inevitably I will end up enjoying the movie.

Watch the Alice in Wonderland trailer

Saturday is hair cut day! I’ll post photos... Hopefully it won’t look horrendous!

In other news, I’m loving the this season of So You Think You Can Dance.

From Wikipedia:
So You Think You Can Dance is an American dance competition and reality show that airs on Fox in the United States.

The series first premiered on July 20, 2005 and has a similar premise to the American Idol series of singing competitions, with nationwide auditions leading to the discovery of the next big star. The show was created by Idol's Simon Fuller and Nigel Lythgoe and is produced by 19 Entertainment and Dick Clark Productions. A mixture of contestants are chosen for the show, ranging from unknown street dancers to winners of national championships. All contestants have to work their way through a rigorous audition process. By the end of this process, 20 dancers of various styles are chosen to compete on national television. Over the course of the show, dancers are assigned different dance styles and partners each week to test their versatility.

It’s really my favourite thing to watch on TV these days.

Oh well, I suppose that's me for now.
Enjoy the evening all, I'm off to dancing!

Mar 12, 2010

Ugh... Today is a bad one...

Today is a downer for me. I just can’t seem to pick up my heart like I have been doing since Feb 14th. My care-free attitude has moved into the cupboard and the happiness that I have been slowly putting back into my heart seems to have gone on vacation. I keep saying to myself, “just let him go” … But today, I just can’t seem to.

I still love you...

Mar 11, 2010


My Flamenco dancing shoes have arrived! I'm so excited because I can finally dance without worrying about plastering my feet up to prevent blisters.

Aren't they gorgeous?

Mar 9, 2010

Road Works... EISH!!!

It seems like the whole of the South Coast is being dug up. Apparently they’re replacing our water pipes, but the chaos that it’s causing is astronomical.

Bear in mind that these photographs that I’m showing you now are just in my street. They’re digging up the sidewalks from Toti to Durban. Almost every street that you drive down these days is partly, or completely, dug up.

This is what I have to tackle every morning and every evening...

So much for replacing the water pipes... By the time they get around to actualy putting them in they're going to be destroyed!

Oh yeah... thanks for leaving your rubbish all over the sidewalk too... Arseholes...

Post Secret

'PostSecret is an ongoing community art project where people mail in their secrets anonymously on one side of a postcard.' - Post Secret

It's one of my favourite sites, and has been for YEARS! I think I'm going to start picking out my favourite secret of the week and post it here.

This week's one made me giggle.

Quick lunchtime post

I thought I’d pop a quick post in whilst I’m eating my fruit salad for lunch. This is a bit of a random question, but don’t you just love mangos? They’re just the most delicious fruit, especially when they’re perfectly ripe, which this one is.

Yesterday evening my computer at the office decided to have a “senior moment”, meaning it went on the blink. So after a reboot and a few choice words tossed at it, it decided to behave itself. It seems to be running fine today, but I’ve set a disk defrag to run in the hopes that it will help whatever issues it seems to be having over the past week. Yesterday I also ran a virus scan, just as a precautionary measure. I generally don’t end up with these kinds of problems (freezing, programmes crashing, etc...), so my first thought was “VIRUS”, but that doesn’t seem to be the case.

In other news... My photography website is down for the moment, and will be until I figure out exactly what I want to do with it. Darren started re-designing my website for me, but as we are no longer together that has fallen by the wayside. I’m a bit sad about that because the concept that he had was really good, if a bit unpolished. Ag, there’s a lot of things I’m sad about when it comes to Darren... I guess that’s just the way it is. Moving on...

Speaking of moving on, we are apparently going to end up moving again. The flat that we live in is being sold. When it’s being sold is a question that I don’t have an answer for, but it is being sold. So when that rolls around, we will be packing up and finding a new home to live in.

And that’s all the news I have for now. Back to the grindstone.

Mar 8, 2010

Flourless Chocolate Cake

I discovered this recipe on the Clover website. It’s a cake that is made up of a few basic ingredients and, if made properly, is heavenly.

This cake, when it’s baking, rises like a loaf of bread. However, as it cools it sinks until it’s about three centimetres thick, but it has the consistency of a solid chocolate mousse. Serve it cold with whipped cream and you will be a hit!

100 g unsalted Clover butter
150 g dark chocolate
150 g milk chocolate
6 eggs, room temperature
Pinch of salt
Clover whipped cream (for serving)

Preparation Method
  • Pre-heat the oven to 180ºC
  • Grease a medium pan with butter and sprinkle with flour. Seal the bottom of the pan with foil
  • Place the butter and chocolate in a mixing bowl
  • Melt in the microwave at a medium strength for 50 seconds
  • Stir to mix thoroughly and allow to cool
  • Beat the eggs and salt with an electric mixer for 15 minutes
  • Use a metal spoon and fold the eggs into the chocolate. (Be patient, it takes time to mix well)
  • Pour in the pan, place in the oven and bake for 30 minutes
  • Take out of the oven and cool totally before removing from the pan
Serve with Clover whipped cream and ENJOY!

Men… Can’t live without them, can’t kill them…

Men are a strange breed aren’t they? They’re as confusing and difficult to read as a Tolkien novel. My ex (now just a friend) and I went to watch The Book of Eli together. See my previous post for my comments on the movie. Glen and I had a lovely evening, but bear in mind that he broke up with me and was determined to remain single until the point where he decided (a day or two before our movie evening) that he was ready for a relationship with me. Goodness, gracious me… Well, I’m certainly not ready for another relationship, and certainly not one with an ex who broke up with me. My heart is still healing from my most recent break-up. A break-up that has left me empty inside, more broken than I have felt in years… if ever before.

So as a result of a rather long and philosophical talk about relationships and where they’re going and/or are meant to go according to each of us, Glen and I are remaining just friends. He’s a sweet, lovely guy, but I want far more out of life and out of a relationship than what he will ever be willing to give me and so that, as they say, IS THAT!

The Book of Eli

I actually have no idea where to begin with this movie. The last 10 minutes was the highlight of the movie. The Book of Eli wasn't a terrible movie, and it certainly had moments of greatness (like the last 10 minutes) but overall I think my life would have been just as fulfilled if I hadn't gone to see it.

Denzel Washington, as always, was phenomenal. I think he alone saved that movie. His quiet, almost prophet-like, manner in the movie was excellent.

I don’t really have much more than that to say about the movie. The comical cannibalistic granny and grandpa was, I think, the knife in the coffin for me. The rest of the movie was still bearable, but granny and grandpa, with their graveyard in the backyard and their “meat” in the kitchen… they just didn’t belong in there.

I’m not even going to attempt to rate this one, but I will offer this as a word of advice… if you’re into high action, high impact movies like I am, give this one a miss.